Mom's spot......

This is the diary of a 20-something mommy from Chicago. Sometimes this will be funny, sometimes sad, but it will always be real........feel free to post comments. Katrina

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

How on earth do I deal?

I've got a lot on my plate right now. Currently, my daughter is in her room screaming. For the record- it's after 10pm. She got up at 6 and for some odd reason isn't sleepy.

Honestly, I'm not holding together well since returning to work. I'm more tired, more cranky, more emotional and sensitive and more scatter-brained. I don't know how women do this for years and years. I used to complain about how hard it was being a SAHM and trust me it was; but it was a cakewalk compared to this.

My body aches right now. My eyes burn, my head hurts and every inch of me is sore. I don't seem to have time for anything and it seems that all I want to do is sleep.

To make matters worse I got a flat on my way home from work. I didn't get to pick up Chey until almost 6pm and by the time I got the tire changed it was 9pm. We just walked in the door about 9:45. To top it off the total for 2 tires came to over a hundred bucks- not what I needed right now.

I'm off to bed. I probably won't be around at all for another few days.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Playing Catch Up

Well, I've been on a " break" so to speak ( not that anyone noticed) and am finally getting a chance to really sit down and get back up to speed.

Last week I started a new job. There is a huge part of me that really enjoys being part of the "real world" again and a part of me that misses not having a care in the world. My official title at work is "office manager" for a small flooring distributing company. Now, when I say "small" I mean it; there are literally 4 people including myself that are in the office. So far I've been catching on fairly quickly but there is still so much to be learned. Since the company is so small they don't have "training manuals" or "guides. The girl is basically throwing me into this role as she's leaving in 6 weeks ( which according to her is NOT nearly enough time). It's a little nerve wracking because I've been out of work for 4 years and my brain isn't used to actually having to fully function. But, the people are nice, the work is easy, the pay is good and we get insurance; what more could a girl ask for?

Cheyenne seems to be adjusting well to being away at a sitter's all day. The lady is super nice and I trust her so much. I'm lucky to have found her and plan to stick around as long as she's available for me. Basically our plan is to save a bit of money in the next 6 months or so and then start TTC. At that time, I will have to train the girl who will cover me on leave. According to the trainer, the company is willing to do "flex-time" so I'm hoping that whoever I train will be willing to split the hours with me and I will be able to have the best of both worlds. I will work part time and be a stay at home mom part time. This is exactly what I have hoped for all along so I'm hoping that my "plan" pans out. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Even if for some reason the boss doesn't go for the arrangement I will continue to work outside the home at least part time. Taking this job has made me realize just how stir crazy I had become staying indoors all the time. I guess being a SAHM can do that to you when you don't have money to take your kids places and don't have friends who stay at home to hang out with. I had become a hermit and I'm glad to be getting out everyday. I have to admit that I also like having to actually get dressed in something other than P.J. pants and a T everyday. It's amazing what some nice clothes and makeup can do for ones self esteem.

Other than that we've been lying low. John's been working on side jobs like mad so we rarely see each other. On a positive note, I've been able to spend more time with my parents since my job is only a few minutes away from their home. I'm just glad that the sidejobs will only be crazy for the summer. Once the weather starts to cool down some, I'll have my hubby back. But, with his line of work he needs to work like mad in order to stash money aside for the winter months when work is sparce. It reminds me of a squirrel hoarding nuts so that he can eat all winter. LOL. We haven't been able to actually save money in the past because we'd get burried in bills in the winter and then we'd spend the whole summer digging out. With me working, we'll actually be able to save so that bills can actually get paid on time.

Today was Father's Day and we had a nice and ( semi) relaxing day. Since I started working I didn't have much time to actually go out and get anything for my dad or John. So, this morning I woke up and went out in search of the perfect gift ( well, for my Dad anyways. Let's just say that I am retaliating against John so he didn't get anything from me this year) My mom had said that my dad wanted T-shirts with pockets on them so I grabbed a couple of them. I also enlarged a photo of him and Cheyenne and had it framed. But, it didn't seem like enough so I asked John what we should get him. He said he didn't know and then I came up with an idea. First I have to take you back to June 2002 when Cheyenne was born. John and I had gone out shopping one evening to buy some stuff for my "birthing bag" it was around the end of May and they had some Father's Day hats sitting on an endcap. John had the idea to get one for my Dad to give him on the day Chey was born. So, John presented it to him on Chey's birthday. Well, my Dad left it sitting on the kitchen table and their dog grabbed it and had a field day with it and it is no more. SO, for Father's Day last year I wanted to get him a replacement but couldn't find anything with "grandpa" on it so I got him a fishing hat, that he loved and wore religiously. Well, that one was lost when he took his boat out for a spin a few weeks ago. It was carried off by the wind and when he went to retrieve it, it had sunk to the bottom of the lake. He actually cried about it because it was from " Cheyenne" So, back to today........I had the idea to go and get him a hat made. It turned out soooooo cute. On the front it said " GAMPY GUY"( with a picture of a bass) and on the back it says " BASSINATOR" . I swear to you my dad was in TEARS over this hat. He went out and got some stain guard for it and vow to wear it everyday until he dies. LOL. He's such a goof. We'll see how long this one lasts. I do, however, hope he takes better care of this one as it wasn't some $5.99 piece of garbage. This hat cost almost 35 bucks. John was also really nice to my dad and made him cry again with a very heartfelt message that he wrote inside a card that HE actually went to pick up himself. It was a nice day. I know it sound funny, but my goal every year is to see my dad cry. I don't know why I like it ( maybe it's just that I know he actually has feelings LOL) but I do and I accomplished it for the 4th year in a row. LOL.

Hope all you had a wonderful day and a wonderful Fathers day with your Dad's and Hubby's!!!!!!!