Bad Dream?
Have you ever felt that life was just a bad dream? That's where I'm at right now. I keep hoping that somebody will pinch me, kick me or punch me to wake me up. My husband is in big trouble. He has hit an emotional low and I'm afraid of where it is going. Several months ago, my hubby had the bright idea to start drinking again after 8+ years of sobriety. At the time, he claimed it was because he was "happy" and loving life. Little did he know that the reason he was so happy was because he was sober. I believe that he has hit his bottom and that he is back on the road to recovery. It has, however, caused a huge strain on our relationship. Because, alcohol was not the only thing my husband was abusing. And, I'd rather not say what exactly he was up to but let's just say it was not good. I'm hoping that the lies and deception can now stop.
I myself, at am a new low. I'm depressed about my husband's behavior and I'm afraid of what his slip off the wagon will do to him. We had an appointment with his shrink yesterday who said he thought it was time John get on some antidepressants because John is "in a bad spot". I've never seen my husband like this and I'm hoping that he will eventually come around to the idea of the antidepressants because he told the doctor to shove it yesterday (in not so many words). I know that this post is all over the place and I apologize, it's just that I can't seem to focus these days. My family life has been so horrible lately and I just don't know what will happen. I do know, that for the next few months I have to keep an eye on my husband and keep him away from social situations where drugs/alcohol might be around. No, I can't exactly keep him from drinking but I can help him keep his focus.
For now, my husband is in therapy once a week and in substance abuse meetings 3x's per week. Please say a little prayer for him that he can find his focus and his sobriety again. Also, please keep my and the kiddo in your prayers as well as this is a very difficult time for us.
If you have made it this far, thanks for reading! I will check in shortly!
I myself, at am a new low. I'm depressed about my husband's behavior and I'm afraid of what his slip off the wagon will do to him. We had an appointment with his shrink yesterday who said he thought it was time John get on some antidepressants because John is "in a bad spot". I've never seen my husband like this and I'm hoping that he will eventually come around to the idea of the antidepressants because he told the doctor to shove it yesterday (in not so many words). I know that this post is all over the place and I apologize, it's just that I can't seem to focus these days. My family life has been so horrible lately and I just don't know what will happen. I do know, that for the next few months I have to keep an eye on my husband and keep him away from social situations where drugs/alcohol might be around. No, I can't exactly keep him from drinking but I can help him keep his focus.
For now, my husband is in therapy once a week and in substance abuse meetings 3x's per week. Please say a little prayer for him that he can find his focus and his sobriety again. Also, please keep my and the kiddo in your prayers as well as this is a very difficult time for us.
If you have made it this far, thanks for reading! I will check in shortly!
posted by Katrina @ 1:55 PM
1 Comments:
At 7:00 AM,
Sarah said…
I'm so sorry to hear this Kat. If you need to talk ever, please call. I hoped when you told me about John's drinking that it wouldn't go any further than what it was. I'll keep you in my thoughts.
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